As every one of you knows, today is the first day
of year 2012 which also dated as 1.1.2011. In this particular day, I spend my
whole day in grandparents' house even right now to accompany my lovely
respected grandpa who is suffering nowadays. As a grandchild, I wish to do
whatever I can to fulfill him. I don't wish him to feel regret before his last
breathe. I just want to sacrifice myself towards him. Without him, which can
directly means that without my daddy, and it will follow by without me, myself.
Thus, I have to spend all my valuable time to him by take care and look after
him. For now, people use to say that a new year, a new resolution, but for me
right now, everything I wish is just pray hard hard till the last day he gasps
for air. I want him to stay longer with us but by looking at him pale and weak
face, this just makes our tears rolling. We just couldn't accept and face the
fact. Can you imagine it, last 2 weeks he still can walked and talked to us,
but right now everything is just
opposite, he just can lying on bed and don't even wish to talk to us. He never wants
to eat and drink as well. Perhaps he is giving up on himself? However, we as
his next generation wouldn't give up on him. We still do anything as we can to
make his life better and better. Every time when we ask him to have some foods
to fill his stomach or drink some waters, he will spontaneously reject and
says, “I am suffering and none of you will know.” This situation makes us feel
so bad towards him, but as common knowledge, we can’t survive without foods and
waters. Therefore, we used to force him at least to drink some waters to fill
his thirst. Okay, I seriously don’t feel like mentioning anymore, it makes my
tears roll. All I can do now is just pray and pray and still pray he can stay
stronger than diseases. We never give up on you; you can’t give up yourself as
well, grandpa! Remember, we still love you forever and ever. Once you are my
grandpa, you are always my grandpa. We will give you support all the way you
are! ♡
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