Indelible Day in Sunway Lagoon ❤️

On last Saturday, we ( Cheryl, Feli, Chin Ying and I) went to Sunway Lagoon. It was our first ever time going to water theme park with each other. To be honest, I miss the moments we enjoyed ourselves to the fullest on that day. I miss playing water and shouting like mad with them. Definitely hope there is another chance in future. There is no picture taken when we were all wet, but let the pictures below do the speaking when we were still with our phone 📷

                                        

                                        

                                                   

                                          

Off to Malacca after that with Cheryl and Feli while Chin Ying went back to Cyber by herself. It was incredibly fun and exciting day with them.

                                             

Take Me to Where I Belong to.

There is no reasons for me to move on if life is getting worst.  I am tired of everything. All I wish now is God, please take away my life, take me to the place where I belong to: the heaven or the hell. I am sorry for having such way of thinking. I couldn't take it anymore. I am crying days and nights. I couldn't sleep well recently. It comes to my mind again and again, which makes me feel so hard to concentrate, so hard to move on. Take me away is what I wish right now. I am sorry if this would be my last post. Take every of my words.

Life sucks!

The feelings when you can't even express yourself to others just because it brings you embarrassment. All you can do is keep it by yourself and feel depressed by yourself. You just can't tell anyone, it sucks. But, when you tell, how should you tell? What is their judgment? It is really hurt, even though I know I shouldn't have done it! Everything is done, I can't take back what I have did. I am stupid. Why did I? 😔 If only I did not, thing wasn't the same right now. I can just focus on my finals peacefully. Why why why?! 😔😔😔 If and only if that is the only solution, I think all I can do is just...

煩！

           人生为何那么多坎坷？😔

            做人又为何那么难？😒

我累了！

哪知，远离悲伤换一条路一样辛苦。谁愿意苍凉一生毫不在乎。我不懂，为何上天会残忍剥夺我所有的柔情，我不懂为何会把自己抛在一个荒芜的绝望之中，也不知道如何来邂逅那一生一世不愿醒来的梦。可世俗的洪流一次次甄灭心中残留微弱的灯火，将梦想击得粉碎，唯寂寞喋喋不休，叹息着永远到不了的天堂，近不了的幸福，忧伤一并把心揉碎。其实，不愿回忆，承受不来。恋上一个人的回忆之城，只想在寂静的角落里，打破心的枯寂。疼痛消失的一刻，心也随之被掏空，充满疲惫，然后睡去，不在醒来...

Spontaneous Return

“When you are enjoying life time flies by, when you are not it stands still, though in reflection of this stillness, the observant may note how much of it has passed, and how much has been wasted.”

This basically explains how fruitful and eventful my 16 days back in Malaysia. I made every days counted since I touched down Malaysia. From family to friends, they never fail to make my return, a memorable one. I am truly glad even distance tears us apart, our bond still stays firm and strong. We still stay crazy as usual. Frankly I say, I am starting to miss them, I miss those days when we were together.

Once I touched down in KLIA, I was fetched back to Malacca, where home sweet home is. After two hours of journey, I reached home. I am so happy to see familiar faces everywhere, everything is so precious to me. Unpacked my luggage and shared everything that I had bought from US for the family, had my shower and off to dinner with the family. After dinner, I actually went to visit my ill grandma, seeing her suffering is how my tears rolled. I couldn’t even accept the fact that she was ill. I pray to Lord so that grandma can live healthily and many more years to go.

The next day, which was Sunday, I actually rest myself well since I was still on jet lag mood. I woke up late in the afternoon, but I was awake by a call from my lovely uncle. Then, I had my brunch and went to renew my driving license. After reached home, uncle’s family was at my house. I was so happy to see them especially my little cousin who has grown up so much since I last saw him. I had a great gossip time with them before we went for Ikan Bakar as dinner. It was perfectly scrumptious because you know; you won’t get to eat such amazing foods outside Malaysia.

That’s how the first weekend ended well for me in Malaysia.

San Diego Trip

2013 has comes to an end. This year is one of the years that I will remember throughout my whole life. Through ups and downs, I survive and never give up until today. This is a year fills with sorrow only when people who are close to me know how my life has been torturing me and making me a stronger person. And now, I am glad to tell the world, I survive! Thank you 2013; let's welcome 2014 with an open-hearted. May the light always be around us, hope always surround us. May our wounds fade out; heart embrace kindness, love and wisdom. May smile never leave our lips and a healthy glow stay on out cheeks. May all desires turn true.  HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

With the ending of 2013, this directly brings me to the first blog post of the year 2014. I am glad I still make my blog alive. As promised to you, I will update my blog once I am back from vacation in San Diego, but I am just too tired and procrastinate until today. Well, before I start off how amazing San Diego is, I actually threw a big surprise to everyone that I made a spontaneous decision to fly back Malaysia! Everyone was shocked, surprised, but I feel so happy to make them feel so! Everyone feels so excited for me, so do myself. I couldn’t even express myself with a single word after flight ticket was booked. The first thing I did was spreading the joyous news to my best friends whom I miss so much. I feel happy that I finally can meet up with them, seeing the familiar faces like those days.

Okay, let’s back to the main topic, San Diego. So, my housemate and I went to San Diego on 26^th Dec to 30^th Dec 2013. I use one word to describe San Diego, which is HOT! The weather in San Diego was extremely hot that could kill most of our skin cells. We touched down San Diego International Airport early in the morning, and we took cab from airport to our hotel. Too bad, it was too early for us to check in, therefore we just sit at the hotel lobby to start plan for our schedule. Coincidentally, we bumped into Jia Yiee and Wan Ning at the hotel lobby. Therefore, we joined them for the following days before they left San Diego two days before we left.

On the first day, we actually planned to head to Sea World San Diego, but who knows the crowd was horribly unexpected. Even queue-ing up to buy entrance tickets can take a long time, so we ended up left Sea World and went to beach. San Diego is well-known with its extensive beaches. It is a must to go beaches when you are in San Diego. Therefore, we went to Shell Beach and La Jolla Shores Beach. La Jolla Beach is a long, flat beach for a hand-in-hand stroll, and it's got great views of La Jolla. In Shell beach, the glistening water and gentle breeze for a refreshing experience. 

The next day, we went to Sea World. Despite of the hot weather, everything was perfect in Sea World. I am so impressed with how close I can get to the sea life.Sea World is known for Shamu, its trained killer whale, or orca, which stars in the park's most famous show. Other shows feature trained dolphins and sea lions. Popular attractions include a shark encounter, a giant aquarium and Rocky Point Preserve, where guests can feed dolphins by hand. The park also boasts theme park-like rides, such as a Journey to Atlantis roller-coaster, a virtual reality Wild Arctic Ride and Shipwreck Rapids, which simulates a whitewater river rafting experience.

The following day, we actually went to Las Americas Premium Outlets. It was about one hour journey from our hotel to the outlets. It consists of 125 outlets including COACH, BURBERRY, BANANA REPUBLIC, COTTON ON, FOREVER 21, MICHAEL KORS, KATE SPADE, RAPHL LAUREN, LASCOTE, and the list goes on and on. From here, usually you will get cheaper price compared to those branches in town even though the designs and styles were the most advanced.

As for the last day, we went to the famous San Diego Zoo. An urban paradise for all ages, the San Diego Zoo is a must-see in Southern California. Spend the day monkeying around in our tropical oasis as you visit amazing habitats for animals such as gorillas, tigers, sun bears, flamingos, mandrills, polar bears, birds of paradise, giant tortoises, leopards and more. Take a Panda Trek to visit the giant pandas and other animals that share their bamboo forest habitat. Go back in time through Elephant Odyssey to discover what animals used to roam Southern California and to see a herd of Asian elephants. Enjoy a guided tour on a double-decker bus or an aerial view from Skyfari, dine in the peaceful surroundings of Albert’s Restaurant, and see animals up close in the Children's Zoo. Discover the wonders of wildlife with animal encounters, interactive experiences, and keeper presentations. A leader in animal care and conservation, the San Diego Zoo is at the heart of the San Diego experience.

Till the next morning, we woke up early in the morning, checked out the hotel and headed to airport. That’s basically my first trip on semester break. Looking forward for the next trip :)

All these while...

Nobody knows when you are sad, nobody knows when you are happy, nobody knows when you are alone, most importantly, nobody even wants to care about you. You live in the world where everything is realistic and selfish, perhaps no? It's my own problem which I have to deal with since small. I feel the ignorance from family, from friends all these while. All I have is to do is just by myself, get through it by myself. I have to say i am a timid girl, I don't share or talk to everyone like I am very sociable, I am just not this type of person. And I will never be. For now, I think I should just ignore the WHOLE WORLD, I don't have a meaning of life. I just don't. Crying the whole night doesn't help as well. Yes, I am typically emotional when there is time I have to be especially when I feel myself no longer what society needs, when I just can't fit in, where nobody wants...

                            

HELLO?

*Flies all over my blog*

Have been seriously neglected my blog for sometimes, sorry, I am getting lazy in updating my blog. I just have no idea why sometimes. Probably because I've no idea what I shall update and is there still anyone that concern and read my blog post? Well, it is okay for me actually, I just simply want to update just to jot down something that happened on me while forgetting I am growing up day by day. I read back my posts when I am not really feeling happy or sometimes just to recall back what had I done for the past. It is all about memories that had been saved in my blog. I share everything good and bad to my readers, that's the only reason why I did not private my blog. 

Anyway, time is really passing in twinkling of an eye. It is almost four months since I am here; this means I am about to done with my first semester. Three more weeks until finals, you kidding? I am not ready for it and I seriously couldn’t imagine that. What had I done for the past few months? all I did was chasing over time and studying for never-ending exams, quizzes and piles of assignments and homework. Without realizing it, I had survived and finger crossed I will do well in the upcoming finals. Promise myself, to come here and study not to waste money, so I hope everything goes smoothly to me.

For the previous days or I would say previous week, I fell sick. Even until today, I wasn’t fully recovered. Had a bad sore throat, cough and flu and few days of fever. Couldn’t bear with it and went for a doctor on last Friday in health center. So, after checking all over my body, it was being examined that there is infection on my throat. Therefore, the doctor gave me some medicines and permitted me to finish it by 10days. Poor me, I hate medicines! Hopefully I will recover as soon as possible because I still need my strength and energy to fight for my finals.

This week is fall break for thanksgiving in my university. So, that means it is holidays! But sadly, it is not really a holidays for me, cause you know, I still have so many things to be done and studied before my winter break hits me. Just came back from library after bio discussion with group mate and now I have to finish it as fast as I can before I can start with another research paper. Got to go now, and I will be update my blog probably after my trip to San Diego for this coming winter break! I can’t wait for it. Bye :)