I Will Always Miss you ❤️

I am sorry, I am the worst granddaughter of yours.

I am sorry, I have not visited you for a while.

I am sorry, I have not made you proud of me.

I am sorry, I am not able to be with you.

I am sorry, I just let you go like this.

I am sorry, I did not spend my time with you.

I didn't know the last time I talked to you would be have you taken your meals? Remember to drink plenty of water. I will always remember the last few questions that you're still able to question me. Just a simple ' Will I miss you' is enough to make me tears.

For now, I want to thank you for taking care of me since I was an infant, for sending me to and back from kindergarten, for preparing me meals over meals through days and nights, for holding my hands to cross the road, most importantly for showing me how important to be a great people in future. As I am growing up, I realize you are growing older. I have so much promises that I have kept secretly with myself after knowing you were sick so badly in the past. I am so disappointed with myself that I have not fulfilled all of them by the time you left. Grandma, I promise you, I WILL STUDY HARD FOR THE SAKE OF YOU. You might not be able to see me succeed one day later, but I promise you I will visit you once I reach home few months later. Till then, thank you for having grandpa as your whole life partner, for having my mom as your daughter and uncles as your sons. I will take care and protect them well enough in the future. I hope you rest peacefully in the heaven. All the memories that I shared with you will always be remembered. I miss you, grandma :(

一路好走！

願妳在天之靈安息！

願天堂的妳不再經受病痛的折磨，願天堂的妳不再經歷日子的艱辛！

21st Birthday in US.

As promised, this post will be the 21^st birthday post part 2, which is also the right date of my 21^st. On this day, as usual, ever since I have been studying in US, I used to celebrate two days of birthday, which is 24/9 and 25/9 because of time difference. It’s 25/9 in Malaysia, but US was still 24/9. Therefore, I usually receive lots of wishes on 25/9 in Malaysia time. So yeah, wishes from all my loves one, family and friends. Thank you so much.  On the night, I was forced to go out after class to celebrate my birthday with the bunch of friends. It’s just a simple dining time, but I appreciate it truly much because it is the thought that counts. Thanks for the treat! :)

On the next day, which was 25/9 in US, just coincidently my only class was cancelled. My professor knew me well enough right? :P So, I didn't have any class on that day. I stayed at home by doing some laundry and homework before heading to dinner with them (Ying Yu, Wey Sin, Qlin and Alberto). I wasn’t surprise since it’s a well-planned dinner from them. Hence, we went to dinner around 6.30pm. We went to YakiniQ to have bbq as dinner. Nomms :) After dinner we just went home since we were all smelly due to the bbq smoke. So yeah Alberto sent Weysin and I back home first. Once I reached home, without hesitation, I went to shower and dry my hair. The moment when I went back to my room, suddenly they were singing birthday song and a cake followed by. I was really surprised and speechless. I never expect thing like this to happen. Plus, at the moment, my hair was so messy and I was on pajamas. Oh God -.-  I felt myself was so ugly! That’s why all the pictures were so ugly haha  * I am not going to post it somehow* Overall, I was happy at the same time feeling surprised. When I thought the night was going to be an usual one, who knows I was being surprised in such way. Thank you people! Thanks for the dinner, the cake and the song. You guys made my 21^st birthday a memorable one in SF. I am truly glad to have you around in here.

Well, that’s basically how I spent my 21^st birthday in and outside of Malaysia. I have the best birthday throughout my 21 years of life. As an official adult right now, I thank all the failures that allowed me to be more passionate and all the setbacks that made me understand the needs of attitude. Finally, it is absolutely wonderful to have come to this world experiencing 21 years of all sorts. I pray and wish the years to come will treat me nicely and I promise to do my best in everything especially in studies.

Advanced 21st Birthday Celebration ♥

Well, I have no idea how should I start off this birthday post, but yeah it is compulsory for me to have this post on my blog. I need to jot down every single memories that have been celebrated for my 21st birthday. It was the best birthday throughout my life. 

First and foremost was the advanced birthday party that was held back in home. I felt so loved on that day. I sincerely thank both my parents that have been spending so much to make my 21st a memorable yet indelible one. They aren't the one that will put a huge celebration for their kids. However, this time, I can feel how much they wished me to have an unforgettable birthday. They understand my feeling to study abroad and leave her loves one. They know the people I love the most will be in Malaysia during my 21st birthday, hence, they truly wanted me to have this birthday party before leaving back to US. I seriously feel the loves that somehow made me cried while thinking about it. Every time they persuaded me to invite more people, I got really stressed. Haha, that's because I tend to be really shy and nervous in front of crowd. But yeah, it's over! Everything went smoothly as I wished. 

Besides daddy and mummy, I would like to thanks everyone for the significance presence especially my lovable aunt who spent her whole day by making good food to serve it on that night. I couldn't be more thankful to have her in my life. To all the elderly, relatives and friends, your presence had made the party a truly exciting and fun. I hope you guys enjoy it like how much I enjoyed myself.   

It was pretty hectic and tired to run in and out to serve everyone for the night, but I enjoyed the process and it was worth after all. I felt myself like a superstar by taking lots of picture with the guests. Once in a lifetime, I would say it was just perfectly presented on that day. 

The party ended around 11.30pm? However, I was still chitchatting with all my friends. Hey, it is not easy to gather back many of them; we need to spend as much time as we can.

Second 21st birthday celebration with the irreplaceable best friends ♥

As for this celebration, I would say that, my first time being completely surprised by someone was this bunch of best friends. Just when I thought it would be a random outing with them before I bid goodbye to them, things just turned out differently as what I’ve expected. We went for early dinner in Ban Lee Siang Satay Celup to fulfill my crave before I am going to miss it in SF. After that, we (actually was them) planned to chill at café to continue our best friends’ bonding time. Just when I was fully concentrated on the ‘singer’ on the stage, suddenly a birthday song reverbed. I was expecting the song was well presented to the person that sat behind me since she is celebrating her birthday on that evening. Who knows, it turned out a cake silently appeared beside me. Trust me, I was seriously surprised and shocked. I was not expecting anything from them. I have no idea why too, perhaps because they have shown up during my birthday party. Hence, I gave them a perfectly done gesture for successfully surprised me. I frankly glad that God have brought them to my life. I am clueless how my life is going to be without the presence. Thank you my dearests. The last station we went was Go Go KTV. We spent our precious time throughout the night by singing our lungs out.  It was just a right moment to relax since they were on midterm session by that time, thus, shouted as much as they could on the night. So, that’s a simple celebration yet a very memorable moment that we have added in each other life. I am truly grateful to have you. Hey, I am sincere kay thou I’ve not tear in front of you guys, but deep inside my heart, I am seriously touched. Love you!

Both celebrations were celebrated in advance, as for the exact date; I should keep it for the next post. Hope you enjoy this post :)