Back here again. This time I am going
to share something about my recent situation. I am not sure why it happens out
of sudden. Okay. Recently, I find that my mood during night swings from good to
bad including right now. Just don't know why I have puzzled feelings when I am
alone. I use to think negatively no matter what happened. But there is no one I
trust for me to share with, maybe there is but right beside me is still I. I
can only try to comfort myself to be optimistic. I don't want people around me
to be worry about me. I am big enough to handle this kind of small thing. I
shouldn't drag anyone to be in my situation. When I tell them, as a friend,
their mood will totally be affected as well. Besides friends that usually become
my listener, not forget my family especially my lovely mum and beloved sis.
They tend to chill and calm me down whenever I was in a bad circumstance but
this time I choose not to tell anyone. I hope to keep it secretly so that only
God and myself know how I feel. I can be smiling and laughing like there is
nothing bothering me but deep in heart only me, myself know. I seldom share my
feelings toward my classmates not because I not trust them but just don't feel
like sharing it. They are the one who be with me when in college, if I show out
my emotion, perhaps they will be worrying. So, don't. Keep it myself and chill.
But to be serious I find that I'm getting better compared with the first
semester :) Although I use to feel emotional sometimes due to stress, but still
I try my best to cope and make sure everything goes well and smoothly.
Right now, I am alone again. This
is the second time living in hostel on Friday’s night. I tell myself not to go
back because of some reasons. First of all, if I heading home, I am so not
gonna finish or even touch any of my homework or assignments, and this time
there is piles of it waiting for me to be done. How can I go back and relax? NO
WAY! Secondly, I am trying to adapt the environment well even though it is
boring. This is my second semester, which means that I left 4 semesters to go
and I am going to leave Taylors and transfer to US. If I continue to go back
every weekend how am I gonna survive later on? Right? (: Even my parents always
wished that I could stay independent and worst come to worst also come back
twice a month and not every week. Yeah I admitted I miss them but for my future
I have to sacrifice myself. So, I guess my reasons are accepted. I will only go
back next week because Monday is public holiday and Tuesday I got no class J
after that, I will only stay quietly in campus and don’t even dare to leave my
foot outside the compound of campus to prepare myself for Finals. Time flies in
twinkling of eyes. Just a while, and soon my second semester is going to end
just like this.
I shall stop now. I am doing my
Psychology assignment and why am I stuck at here!! Poor me ): Okay bubye! Will
update soon. Night world.
