人生无常

外婆這樣就沒了 😪 我永遠懷念您！❤️ 回憶和照片將伴隨我一生！外婆，是時候好好休息了...

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剛剛看了在棺木里的外婆，眼淚忍不住潸然淚下，心裡還是有很多話想對她說 😔 外婆，你還好嗎？你的愛，你的話，我都會銘記於心！我真的很捨不得你 😥

永遠愛你

外婆走了，永遠的離開了我，離開了我們，我並沒有送她老人家最後一程，距離的問題讓我連最後一面也沒見，那種失去親人的感覺好難受。僅以此文紀念哀悼我也最愛的外婆！

　　其實我都不相信外婆突然就沒了，半夜剛剛收到媽媽發來她的近況，聽到媽媽在電話那頭說外婆癱瘓的時候，心簡直是崩潰！當天的中午，媽媽一封信息說外婆病逝了。我的心恍如晴天霹靂一聲，我無法接受這個事實！由於路程的遙遠，繁重的課業，根本不能回去，好難受，最後一面也見不到了。

　　外婆我好想你，我不知道自己要做什麼，不知道該去做什麼，我都回不去，連最後一面也看不到了。只有在這裡寫日誌對你的想念對自己的自責，您怎麼不堅持一下，我多幾個月就回來了，我多想再摸摸你的手，多想吃你做的飯菜，多想在叫叫你，好像這對我來說好遙遠了。我不能回去參加您的葬禮了，我老是轉移注意力，不去想這件事，可是我想了好久並且告訴自己，外婆真的沒了，真的沒了，外婆上天堂了，那裡也許會更幸福。我總是坐在電腦前面，想您永遠沈睡在那漆黑的棺材里，與黃土做伴。想到了最後見您那面，說的那句話：「外婆，我要回美國了！你要好好照顧身體！等我回來再來看你。」 沒想到那一走居然是最後一面。

　　外婆，我愛你，一路走好。

I MISS YOU

沒想到自己再也沒有機會叫你阿婆，

沒想到自己再也沒有機會去盼望你，

没想到自己再也没有機會跟你睡覺，

没想到自己再也没有機會和你聊天，

没想到自己再也没有機會叫你要吃。

這一切只留下了美好又深刻的印象！

阿婆，

下輩子我也要繼續當你的外孙女！

这一刻，来得太突然！

真的怪自己为何要往外发展，

怪自己为何不好好孝顺你，

怪自己为何不回去看你，

怪自己为何不珍惜你，

现在，一切已经太迟了！

没的见你最后一面，

自己的心情也不知如何形容！

不管怎样，

我祝福你在往后的日子依然那么的慈祥，那么的疼爱我，保护我！

我会永永远远记得你！

晚安！ 

I Will Always Miss you ❤️

I am sorry, I am the worst granddaughter of yours.

I am sorry, I have not visited you for a while.

I am sorry, I have not made you proud of me.

I am sorry, I am not able to be with you.

I am sorry, I just let you go like this.

I am sorry, I did not spend my time with you.

I didn't know the last time I talked to you would be have you taken your meals? Remember to drink plenty of water. I will always remember the last few questions that you're still able to question me. Just a simple ' Will I miss you' is enough to make me tears.

For now, I want to thank you for taking care of me since I was an infant, for sending me to and back from kindergarten, for preparing me meals over meals through days and nights, for holding my hands to cross the road, most importantly for showing me how important to be a great people in future. As I am growing up, I realize you are growing older. I have so much promises that I have kept secretly with myself after knowing you were sick so badly in the past. I am so disappointed with myself that I have not fulfilled all of them by the time you left. Grandma, I promise you, I WILL STUDY HARD FOR THE SAKE OF YOU. You might not be able to see me succeed one day later, but I promise you I will visit you once I reach home few months later. Till then, thank you for having grandpa as your whole life partner, for having my mom as your daughter and uncles as your sons. I will take care and protect them well enough in the future. I hope you rest peacefully in the heaven. All the memories that I shared with you will always be remembered. I miss you, grandma :(

一路好走！

願妳在天之靈安息！

願天堂的妳不再經受病痛的折磨，願天堂的妳不再經歷日子的艱辛！