The hectic week.

Basically I am here just to make my blog stay alive. It’s been a short while since my last updated on it. I have been struggling for the whole week. Life is really hectic. I find myself living in the HELL which I have never experienced before. Every day, from morning until night, I will only study, study and still study. I just don't like these phenomena. I find that it is seriously too stressful for me. Every subject that I am taking now is not easy. Things are getting tougher and tougher as time passes by. Assignments, homework, quizzes, presentations all started to attack me. I can't even rest properly. Semester 3 is seriously not my standard. I hate it!! :/ I want a better life but I know I have to work hard for it. Nothing comes to us, if we didn't work for it. I understand but I just couldn't cope it well :'( Compared to previous semester, at least I can steal some times to chill myself, I still get to go back to hometown almost every week but now life doesn't seem to be the same. Yes, I know I have to stay independent, but still we need to go back to see our family. So, I planned to go back this week as I didn't go back last week. The moment when I reached home yesterday, checked out my facebook and received a group message from Malaysian Studies class which required group members to have a meeting in library tomorrow! Whatttthhheeelllll~It spontaneously dragged me down like mad!!! Why don't you inform earlier so that I never come back. I rather sacrifice myself not to come back home than being so stressed when I am back home! :/ I was thinking and tearing the whole night. I am not a person that can let thing goes just like this. I have to attend it so that I know what's going on. Haihs. When I told my parents, they just told me to inform them you were back here. Yes I did, but they just said it doesn't matter as long as you present on next week! Shityyyyyy -.- At the end, I choose to be brave, I give up on everything, I let everything to be. I don’t bother anymore. I surrender!! I can’t do anything also if I just let it bother me all the way. So, I just told them, everything let me be the one. I do everything alone. I present alone. That’s all. It makes me easier and also don’t trouble anyone. Sighhhh K Anyway, I wish I could handle everything well in future. GROW UP please!! Be strong all the way.